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SUNSET

March 11, 2013

The view outside my bedroom

Summer is coming

"Summer afternoon- summer afternoon; to me those have always been the two most beautiful words in the English language."

-Henry James

How to win a girl back

1. If she reads a lot, be prepared for a comparison with every fictional character she fancies. Jane Austen's heroes top the list, study Pride and Prejudice/Persuasion by heart for Mr. Darcy and Captain Wentworth will give you useful tips.

2. Never assume that she wants you back. Be prepared to get scratched and bleed, chances are she will fight you off. A girl hurt is like an onion. You have to peel each layer one at time. Wear goggles as you do this, it will prevent you from tearing up as you get nearer the center.

3. If you miss her, tell her you miss her every freaking second of every freaking day whether you are drowning from deadlines or just having a time off. Straying the slightest from this is digging your own grave. She will want it in grand scale. So grit your teeth and fasten that seat belt.

4. Never for crying out loud bring an old mistake. “My mistake was loving myself more than I loved us.” You are stabbing yourself with your own knife. An extremely dull one.

5. Never ask for a plain and simple reset. She’s not a wifi button and neither are you. Starting over means trusting someone completely again. She’s scared.  Assure her even if it means going lots of those extra miles. Ask what you can do to make it up to her, there will always be something. Start from there.

6. Please don’t make this a half-hearted attempt. If you only have the balls to do this by halves then just leave her alone. 

7. And oh, a girl who loves and craves words can stray away from all those talk and blabber for once.  If you want her back, do something about it. Randomly appear on her doorstep, call her. Be pathetic. You already lost her. What’s the worse thing that could happen anyway?

Human Heart Nature Products Review

I became interested in organic products early last year when I read an article about parabens.  Paraben is a chemical added to most of cosmetic products in the market as a preservative.  It is very popular among industrial company manufacturing beauty products because it extends the shelf life due to its antibacterial and anti-fungal properties.  Some of the documented side effects of this chemical are skin irritations, premature aging and breast cancer risk.

Unfortunately, I noticed that most of organic products sold cost an arm and leg.  Anyway, I researched and found this company that sells affordable organic products.  I was impressed with their core values PRO-PHILIPPINES, PRO-POOR and PRO- ENVIRONMENT. Here's a link if you want to read more about it- Human Heart Nature.  The products are relatively cheap so I went ahead and bought a few.

Natural Sunflower Beauty Oil

                                         

According to the site this is a miracle oil that can lighten dark skin, diminish stretchmarks appearance. Don't we all wish there is something like that in the market that actually works. There is a cult following for this product but personally, I haven't notice any difference in the color of my elbow or lips, its still slightly darker than the usual pigment of my skin.  Some lucky people claims that it helped lightened their stretchmarks and thicken the strand of their hair, again it was not evident in my case.  All in all, this oil is okay for me because its cheap, easy to apply though its consistency is heavier than Neutragena's (which can be bothersome in our humid climate) and  moisturize well. The only downside of this product is it can turn rancid after a few months just like a regular cooking oil.

                                                 

This exfoliating product is cheap compared to those being sold by the body shop.  Out of everything I have purchased from this company this is one my favorite, though I know some people would be widely bothered with its strong scent.  I am not a fan of lemongrass but I liked the experience as I scrubbed away the grime and dirt in the shower, it made me feel really clean and fresh. The only thing bad I can say about this is product is brown rice grits, the exfoliating ingredient, is minimal. For some it defeated the whole purpose of doing a body scrub.  Those who preferred not to be flayed alive with a sandpaper type of scrubs proliferating in the market could get this instead and have a mild exfoliation experience.

                                        

I bought these because I am what you would call a berry scent fanatic.  In fact when I was a freshman in college, my favorite lip balm and cologne were the strawberry ones.  In reality, I have never found a berry product that I don't like except for Calpol (Paracetamol) until I have the misfortune of laying my eyes on these product, I am not sure what was going on with the noses of this company's tester here. Its cloying and in your face type that had me gagging initially. It reminded me wilting flowers post valentines. Aside from that the texture of the lotion is light which would have been a blessing if it is not very runny. It reminded me of yogurt gone bad. 

                          

Human Heart Nature Hair Care line is quite popular with the netizens, according to most reviews it helps lessen falling hair and hair breakage.  I could not attest to this since I got the small version so it did not do anything for my hair after few washes.  The pros would be it has a great scent and it feels clean and fresh. The cons? Cannot think of any just yet.

4 AM

I stopped writing. 

That being said and done, my reasons would probably be a.) In a society where everyone clings and applauds at being busy I was also vacuumed in that pretentious black hole b.) I became uninteresting and to my great disappointment became a boring individual with nothing intelligent or amusing to say or c.) I simply lost my flair and interest for wording up thoughts. Hoping to give my rusty writing brain cells a little shove I will attempt to convey my thoughts into probable and tangible words again.

It’s 4am in the morning. I slept like dead for 18 hours straight to catch up a deprived sleep of almost 3 days. And now I am in a shitty body clock cycle worse than a bitchy jetlag. To amuse and distract myself in this ungodly hour from the unusually creepy moon lurking outside my window, I watched Silver Linings Playbook and read The Fault in Our Stars for the 3^rd time.

I happen to like The Fault in our Stars mainly because I knew John Green got the title from Shakespeare. And I always used to like a person who incorporates Shakespeare or some classic literary hero into their daily life, writing in this instance. It wakes up my inner literary snob of self. But on this third time reading the book, I concluded that I detest it with a passion. I might argue that perhaps because I’m reading the playwright of Hamlet and Macbeth the past days and it made The Fault in our Stars weirdly superficial. Not that I find death superficial. My god no. On the contrary, I loathed how idealistic death was portrayed. Or how it was downright romanticized. Would Augustus love Hazel in such cataclysmic force if they weren’t dying? Would their love be less than grand if cancer wasn’t like a morbid drug dangling between them? They’re 16, children forced to age by a looming death.  And could I, in my views of a perfect world, possibly stay hopelessly in love to a one-legged, dying boy who was too ill he pukes and pisses at himself on a daily basis? I cringe at the thought. At this age of 24 will I stay because I genuinely wholeheartedly want to or because as a mature human being it becomes an obligation? The quiet of the night made it impossible to drown these thoughts and I am horrified at my imminent answers.

To add it up, the Silver Linings Playbook made it worse. I watched it for three reasons: that it scored a 92% from Rotten Tomatoes, someone wrote about it in Thoughtcatalogue and I’ve been reading raved tweets about it. Unfortunately, I am plagued from bad taste because I can’t seem to find anything amusing or captivating about it. All I saw were a bunch of messed-up people falling in love with each other in a crazy f*cked-up way. I didn’t understand one bit about the dark place these characters where in and how it is aww-worthy that they found great love amidst it. The movie made me feel shallow.

I realized tonight that I am sadly and fortunately a great cliché.  I will always choose overrated fairytales with knight in shining armors, white horses and sugarcoated Bruno Mars song than mind-blowing love stories that requires a great deal of greatness and selflessness.

And that makes me really sad and surprisingly, very much relived.